Who Should I Be

Who Should I be?

I have had a thought in my mind about what I should do with my life. I am waiting for some great answer and I feel it won’t come. The thing is, my career I would say is now very loose. Really I could drop all the writing idea and just work in a supermarket. The pay would be good and constant and I could work great hours around family. It could be easy but I know it wouldn’t be truly for me, it would be to just bring money home. Should I be more pressing with emailing brands and seeking self-employed work, sometimes I don’t even know where that starts.

I know that maybe I need to do something though and I feel like I am waiting for a sign from God to let me know but really I know there will be no answer.

He won’t just tell me what to do; life isn’t like that. Nothing is handed on a plate and if it is those actions really compromise your soul.

But what if this is the wrong question to ask God, what if I should really be focusing on something else. Maybe it's not ‘what should I be doing?’ more ‘what should I be?’. You see, as Lt. Judy Hopps says at the end of Zootropolis: “....try to make the world a better place. Look inside yourself and recognise that change starts with you.”

No matter where I am in thinking “what should I be doing?” I need to be focusing and listening in for “How I should be behaving”. The greatest change in my life can only be in trying to make me a better person. Someone more compassionate, giving, understanding; I could give you a list, but that is just it. Maybe in working on myself I see how the paths open up and I find my confidence in my place in life.

Our questioning of what we should be doing should not be at the forefront, our questioning of how should we be behaving maybe should and that is what will give us our answers.